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As the new/old President of Haiti, Rene Preval is back for the first time. For those of you who are unfamiliar with the recent history of the world’s first Black led republic let me explain. Preval served as President of Haiti from 1996 to 2001 but many argue that he was simply a stand in for former President Jean-Bertrand Arisitide for whom Preval served as a prime minister in the early 90’s; a figure-head in a Bush-Cheney-Carlyle Group kind of way. A stand up-stand in if you will. When Aristide returned to office in 2001, Preval dutifully stepped back into the shadows and watched as Haiti slipped further and further into chaos.
But now in the vacuum created when Aristide was mysteriously shuttled out of Haiti under the cover of darkness and a hail of gun fire, a new and improved Preval has stepped in to fill the void. With a new political party, the L’Espwa (Hope) Party, behind him and 51% of the popular vote riding with him Preval feels that he is up to what might be considered THE most difficult job in the Americas. If you listen close enough, you can hear the whispers that he is still simply fronting for Aristide and that his victory is totally dependent on the fact that Aristide’s followers believe this idea to be true. But at Nat Creole we believe in the power of positivity and we say in our best Japanese Gambatte (Strength to you) President Preval. The people of Haiti need you to be strong.
Rest in peace Jay Dilla. Rest in peace Octavia Butler. Rest in Peace Ali Farka Toure. We thank you for your contributions. |

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On April 9, 2002 Weldon Irvine- pianist, playwright and composer of over 500 works- committed suicide at the age of 59. Well known for his work with Nina Simone, Weldon served as Simone’s artistic director and penned the lyrics for the classic Young, Gifted and Black. more |
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I focus on the sound quality of various dialects with a means to generate a discourse with the senses. Within the framework of performance, each word is “performed” rather than delivered. This notion of performing the text falls within a switching of codes that deals with physical mannerisms and how we talk to one another through daily performance more |
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Lolo Veleko, Cindy and Nkuli , from “Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder,” Johannesburg, 2003-04
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When Okwui Enwezor left Nigeria to attend Jersey College in Newark, New Jersey he brought more than his school books and a passport. He brought a vision of the world that places cosmopolitan Africa at its center, intellectually moving the continent from the fringes of global discussions of modernity to the central thematic point. Socially, politically and culturally Enwezor has painted wide swaths of Red, Black and Green in places typically devoid of color.
Return to a few of the mammoth curatorial efforts Enwezor has now made dom rigueur over the last decade and some change and you will get the gist of what I am saying.
Look back at The Short Century: Independence and Liberation Movements in Africa, 1945- 1994, where Enwezor placed decolonization in its rightful position as one of the most significant historical events of the 20th century,
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Documenta 11, where Enwezor, Documenta’s first nonwhite and non-European artistic director, used his global stage to pointedly comment on the social and political confusion that has ensued since the fall of the Soviet Union and the rise of globalization,
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In/sight: African Photographers, 1940- Present, where Enwezor staged the first exhibition beyond the borders of Africa that celebrated the work of photographers that came to prominence during the years in which African states were claiming independence.
Take a look at all of that and you will see that Enwezor’s curatorial efforts have been so focused that they now extend beyond even the political and social themes he has so famously infused into his work. They are vehicles to spread the word and give voice to generations of voices that were once ignored but now have been channeled into the expressions of a chosen lot and framed in the form of installations.
That is a lot to handle. A burden few would be able to withstand. But luckily Enwezor tucked more than some books in that bag when he came to the US some 25 years ago. Luckily he brought a vision with him.
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Snap Judgments will examine the ways in which recent photographic art has moved beyond both African traditions and Western influences to explore new aesthetic territories. The exhibition will present over 200 works by 35 artists from a dozen countries. Encompassing the African continent from the Muslim cultures of North Africa to the sub-Saharan nations of the south, Snap Judgments will feature a range of highly individual artistic responses to the enormous changes now taking place in economic, social, and cultural life throughout Africa.
Snap Judgements will be on display from March 10- May 28. 2006 @ The International Center of Photography. 1133 Avenue of the Americas @ 43rd Street NYC |
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Statistics indicate that China currently has more than 2,000 museums, with more than 20 million items in their collections and more than 8,000 exhibitions being staged every year.
To add to that number, the State Administration of Cultural Heritage, which is in charge of museums nationwide, is planning the construction of 1,000 new museums by the year 2015. By that time, every mid-size or larger city in China is expected to have at least one museum.
This "museum fever" in cosmopolitan cities such as Beijing and Shanghai has recently stimulated lively discussion in China and overseas.
Beijing is reportedly planning to build 20 more museums and have at least 130 museums by the time it hosts the 2008 Olympics. Among the major projects are the 1.8 billion yuan (US$217 million) expansion of the National Museum of China and construction of a new wing for the China National Art Museum. "Not to be outdone, Shanghai says it plans to build 100 new museums for the 2010 World Expo," according to an article published in the latest issue of "Art in America" magazine.
While many people are thrilled by the prospect of the burgeoning of museums in the country, some experts have questioned the "imbalance between the hardware and software" -- that is, too many museums and not enough trained personnel.
In their view, as the country becomes more financially developed, people are eager to build more museums. But who is going to do the work in all these modern facilities that will be seen as symbols of the national as well as local cultural heritage and an important element in shaping the country's international image?
"The quality of a museum's displays rests largely in the hands of its curatorial staff, regardless of the quality of its collection. Unfortunately, many of the staff members in our museums are not qualified to run a modern public museum," remarked Feng Yuan, the new director of the National Art Museum of China, who previously served as director of the arts department of the Chinese Ministry of Culture.
He said that the staff at the museum lags behind those of leading art museums abroad in terms of professional knowledge, familiarity with the arts and commitment to public service.
Museum training programs and courses in China are not up to the standards seen in places like Europe or the United States, where training programs in museum curatorial work and museum administration have been in place for a much longer time.
Only a handful of universities in China Peking, Nankai, and Fudan, to name a few, have museum studies programs. Archaeology or history programs in most Chinese universities and art schools are research-oriented, with little consideration being given to museum curator training.
Programs in curatorial studies, arts administration, and museum education are next to non-existent in the country. The internship system, which is widely used in Western museums and of great help in training museum professionals, has yet to be introduced in most Chinese museums.
With an eye focused on improving domestic training programs, many Chinese museum professionals are turning their eyes to international resources and experience. "We can't expect our senior staff to change much," Feng said. "We do hope to send our young staff members to receive training in foreign museums or institutions, and we are recruiting more graduates with Master's or higher degrees. We want more well-trained young professionals who love their jobs."
International training
The good news is that some exciting foreign museum training programs are already being planned or under way to help China build up a staff of qualified museum personnel.
Bruce Altshuler, director of the Museum Studies Program at New York University (NYU), is one of the international experts who are enthusiastically working on such projects.
Since 2002, Altshuler, an authority in museum studies research and training in the United States, has made field trips to China and other countries in Asia and Europe to prepare for a summer institute at NYU. The project will bring together young museum professionals from Asia, Europe and the United States for three weeks of intensive training and exchange.
During his visit to China, Altshuler met many museum administrators, curators, and scholars in Beijing, Tianjin and Shanghai. He investigated three general areas of museum practice that he believes are "the main areas that need more professionalism:" fund-raising and marketing; educational programming; collections and exhibitions.
"I was very impressed by how proud people from Chinese museums are of what they have, how serious they are in studies and research, and how aware they are of international developments," Altshuler said. "They seem to be more confident in research, but not so confident in putting on exhibits for the public and communicating with the public.
"We hope the summer institute will open in 2006. Each summer, we would like to bring together 25 to 30 people," he said. He added that activities designed for the training programs would include presentations by American museum professionals, working in teams to solve problems, visiting local museums in the New York area, and planning trips to cities like Washington DC and Philadelphia, which also have great museums.
"I think that with its scope, the program will bring people together and give them a chance to exchange ideas," remarked Sarah Bradley, associate director of the New York-based Asian Cultural Council (ACC) an affiliate of the Rockefeller Brothers Fund, which sponsored Altshuler's field trip to China.
"The amount of training people can receive in a summer institute is very small, but these people are to come from different museums which operate in very different ways. It doesn't make any sense to learn only the American model. People should sit together and talk about how they solve similar problems, and they can take the ideas they get back to their different institutions," she added.
Collaborative endeavors
Beyond the Museum Studies Program at NYU, which also offers a Master's degree, many other universities and institutions in the United States also have plans to work with China in training professionals in almost all museum-related disciplines.
Harvard University, for instance, has established the Courtney Sale Ross Arts in Education Scholarship to support Chinese professionals in graduate studies, aiming at fostering communication among cultural institutions (specifically museums) in the United States and China. Similarly, the Teachers College of Columbia University has increased collaboration with the Beijing-based Central Academy of Fine Arts in the fields of art museum education and arts administration.
Last year, the Central Academy of Fine Arts of China and the National Academy of Cultural Heritage of France opened a joint program in Beijing to train senior administrators in Chinese museums. Last December, veteran scholars and professionals from both sides presented a series of seminars that were highly welcomed, according to Fan Di'an, professor and vice-president of the Central Academy.
Leading cultural institutions such as the Asia Society Museum in New York, the Smithsonian Institute in Washington DC and the British Museum in London are also interested in expanding co-operation with China.
"What we are witnessing today in China is the exponential growth of the museum sector, particularly in relation to contemporary art," remarked Melissa Chiu, director of the Asia Society Museum. She cited as examples the Shanghai Museum, the Shanghai Art Museum, the Guangdong Museum of Art, and the Millennium Museum in Beijing.
"The Asia Society Museum has a long history of working with Chinese institutions, especially for our traditional art exhibitions. We look forward to collaborating more with Chinese museums in the future to present the art of China, past and present," Chiu said.
The British Museum and the National Museum of China have reached an agreement to exchange professionals for short-term visits, according to Zhu Fenghan, executive director of the National Museum of China.
Like the ACC, which has been supporting US-China exchanges in the arts and museum sectors for decades, international foundations such as the Henry Luce Foundation, Andrew W. Mellon Foundation, Starr Foundation and the Paul Getty Trust all support exchanges and training in the museum sector.
When dreams come true
Zhu Fenghan, executive director of the National Museum of China, said the professionalism of staff in Chinese museums has improved remarkably in the past five or six years as a result of increased international exchanges and the excellent example set by local institutions such as the Shanghai Museum.
"Professionals at the National Museum of China now have more chances to communicate with their counterparts from the rest of the world. Most of them have travelled abroad. Their vision has been broadened while working with foreign museums."
Zhu added: "We want to offer the best exhibitions we can think of and afford to the public, and we are constantly learning from the world's leading museums. We do welcome the ideas of foreign institutions or foundations in staff training. And we welcome foreign professors and experts to come to train our staff in China."
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Reared by a painter. Inspired by photographic legends. Driven by a commitment to community. Akintola Hanif, or Hyze for those that know, is a serious cat. With an eye for imagery, a heart for community, and a passion for both, Akintola Hanif is primed to be an important voice for some time to come.
Nat Creole had a chance to rap with the photojournalist and filmmaker and find out what makes him keep up the good fight. Interested in what a dedicated man sounds like? Read on.
Nat Creole: Tell us a little bit about your background, what has shaped your desire to create and be such an active force in community building?
Akintola Hanif: Growing up in Brooklyn with a father who was a painter I was exposed to the visual arts at a young age. I was spray painting and airbrushing murals on walls, trains and canvas by the time I was 13. My inspiration comes from being a part of both the hood and the art world.
I don’t really consider myself an active force in community building. If I am, it’s by chance. I just want to give my people their deserved shine and continue to document our culture. I want to shake up the people who claim our culture but dwell elsewhere. Too many of our young kings are dying and too many of our young queens are lost. If we don’t do something our kids are going to continue to kill each other and a lot of others.
That’s my motivation. There is a distinct class separation gap that I’m trying to bridge.
NC: Documenting the world around you is a recurring theme in your bio, why do you think it’s been so important for you to record the story of your activities and the life transpiring around you on such a consistent basis?
AH: I feel that if I am not active in documenting the moments and times of our history, much will be forgotten. My camera is the perfect tool to capture the memories of the invaluable people, places and times I see daily.
So much beauty goes underappreciated while we bypass our finest. I want to use my skills and talents to be become a constant recorder of the forgotten men, women and children that we don’t often see in magazines and visual media.
NC: You have established relationships with some of the most serious photographers working today. What are some of the things that you have learned from them?
AH: I have a great friendship with Jamel Shabazz and Ernie Panicolli that goes beyond mentorship. As a Photojournalist, they are inspirations. The most important thing I’ve learned from them is that there is a real need for what I do. They have encouraged me to continue recording the history of our people and our times without compromise or apology.
NC: You are developing a project called The Bity that strikes me as a collaborative effort between you and the (Newark, NJ) community that you are filming, how is it that you were able to establish this relationship and receive so much access to the intimate corners of people's lives?
AH: I am the people whose lives I’m documenting in The Bity. I have been exposed to more things than the majority of people who live there, but there is very little difference in who they are and who I am. I have family that lived there. As a child I spent lots of days running around The Bity with my cousins, so people know me and have given me more access than they would have given an outsider. They know I have a genuine interest in who they are and telling their story. They can see I’m not just coming in to take pictures and be out. I’m not here to capitalize off their lives.
NC: Your mixed media short film Freedom or Everybody Dies received a strong reaction at the 2005 H2O Hip-Hop Odyssey Film Festival. I think “powerful” was the adjective commonly used to describe the piece. What was the motivation behind the work and why do the themes incorporated into Freedom or Everybody Dies and The Bity carry so much importance for you?
AH: Most of the time we don’t see the beauty, value or self-destructive tendencies within ourselves until all is lost. I just want to show the world how ingenious we are as a people – and remind ourselves of our greatness. I want these hipsters that are claiming hip-hop to acknowledge the people who are living and dying within the culture. I want them to take responsibility for critiquing, but not doing anything to aid in the development of our children. Too many young people are dying while we skip around SoHo. That’s why this is so important to me.
NC: As a cat that came up during the graffiti movement and earned his stripes during the early stages of hip-hop, you are pretty vocal about your issues with where the cultural form is now. What is your assessment of where hip-hop is today?
AH: I’m not a hip-hop historian, advocate or spokesperson. All I can do is give my personal opinion. Hip-hop has been replaced with what I call pop-hop. Most of the people that claim hip-hop are the exact opposite of what hip-hop is right now. Hip-hop is not retro sneaker wearing hipsters walking around in tight pants and fat laces celebrating b-boying and the 80’s. Hip-hop today is poisoning the minds of our youth. Things are a lot more violent and self-destructive now. There are some exceptions but they are few and far apart
NC: I know you are a busy man, what other projects are on the menu and what can we expect from Akintola Hanif in the near future?
AH: Right now, I’m working on a few short films for organizations in the Newark area including a drug and gang prevention piece for the Central Ward Boys and Girls Club. I’m also preparing to start filming for a short documentary that will look at the lifestyle of lesbians from all walks of life.
Later this year, I’ll begin work on several publishing projects. Two books, one that highlights my best subculture photographs and one that I’m working on with my business partner based on the lesbian film. We will also be publishing Hycide Magazine this year and planning future shows with other photographers. You can stay in tune with me and check for further updates on my website at www.akintolahanif.com. |
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HeadKnot by CD
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Dubmatix
Champion Sound Clash 2006
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New York Noise,
Volume II
2006 Soul Jazz Records
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Jukka Eskola
Jukka Eskola 2005
Free Agent Records
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Punk funk. Willie Stargell-era underground. Dig it. |
Scandinavian bop. Sounds like a dessert, but just as rich from this Finnish trumpeter. Impressive production and tempos. |
Tama Waipara
Triumph of Time 2004
Obliqsound Records
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MF Doom
Nastradoomus 2006
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Sexy 70 2006
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| Tripped across this New Zealander on the humble. Incredibly beautiful rhythms and insight. |
Metal Face twisted up with Nasir Jones. Oh, boy… |
Electronica/Vibes/Glass Bong. Diamond-in-the-back feel from producer Che (aka Alexandre Caparroz). |
CD is the single parent of HeadKnot and you can reach him at cd@natcreole.com |
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On April 9, 2002 Weldon Irvine- pianist, playwright and composer of over 500 works- committed suicide at the age of 59. Well known for his work with Nina Simone, Weldon served as Simone’s artistic director and penned the lyrics for the classic Young, Gifted and Black. And that is just a portion of the legacy Irvine left behind when he took his life and followed in the path of his mother who also committed suicide.
It is this legacy of prodigious talent and personal turmoil that is encapsulated in the documentary The Edification of Weldon Irvine. Filmmaker Collis H. Davis Jr., who was a long-time friend of the late jazz musician, shot the film in 16mm film over 20 years ago as his thesis project while in graduate school at New York University.
"I decided to shoot Weldon as a subject for my film because at the time he had gained some sort of notoriety as a musician and recording artist with MCA records." Explains Davis, who is currently a professor living in the Philippines.
The documentary opens up in 1974 with Irvine speaking with Davis about seclusion and isolation. Weldon explained the need to create two identities in order to remain self- possessed; one identity for public consumption and the other his own true personal persona. Throughout the film Irvine delves into his own personal philosophy concerning the struggle to attain peace of mind amidst a troubled family background and music industry drama. Beautifully shot and edited, it pans from Irvine in performance at the Village Gate with his then band, The Kats, to him in martial arts class and on location in his hometown of Hampton, Virginia. The documentary also gives an in-depth interview with his grandmother who raised him after his parents divorced.
Weldon speaks profoundly on his art and his honesty is moving. He talks of his relationship with Simone in reverent tones, "Nina needed an organist to embellish her sound," Weldon explains of Nina Simone recruiting him to her band. "She was a gifted poet, prophet and a perfectionist, which is why we worked together well." Their relationship would set the standard for a life of collaborative work for Weldon, he would go on to work with many artists and poets from different genres from Miles Davis to Big Daddy Kane to poet MuMs the schemer. Hip hop was especially close to his heart. Weldon had much faith in hip hop and was very supportive of the MCs who used the art form to offer commentary and invoke change. His work has been sampled often by hip hop artists, his sound lacing A Tribe Called Quest’s “Electric Relaxation” which was derived from Irvine’s We Getting Down, for example. In 1999 he teamed up with many well known MCs, who affectionately dubbed him Master Wel, to create the Amadou Project. Although never officially released, the Amadou Project celebrates the life of murdered West African vendor Amadou Diallo, shot 41 times in 1999, and also gives harsh commentary on police brutality.
The Edification of Weldon Irvine takes us back to when Irvine had the world ahead of him and gives us the opportunity to see what a tremendous talent he was. But there is a sadness at the core of the film because we know how his life would turn out. Many questions still surround the nature of Weldon’s death. Many have speculated about his decision to take his life in the parking lot of an EAB Bank, suggesting that it symbolized his rumored struggles with the IRS.
Talib Kweli, whose song Where Do We Go from his album Quality is a dedication to Irvine who was a close friend and musical collaborator, said it best
“We had Weldon to turn to but he may not have had anyone to turn to himself.”
Laylah Amatullah Barrayn is a frequent contributer to Nat Creole and the Queen of the Night. To contact her go to http://gotjazz.info. |
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Writer, vocalist and Harlem denizen, Latasha N. Nevada Diggs is one of those forces of nature that makes juggling art forms, ideas and word play seem like child’s play. A fellow of the Cave Canem Workshop for African American Poets, LaTasha has completed residencies at Caldera Arts Space and Harvestworks Digital Media Arts Center as well as received a Zora Neale Hurston scholarship from Naropa Institute and New York Foundation for the Arts fellowship. In addition, she is the lead electronic vocalist for two bands, the Yohimbe Brothers, fronted by Vernon Reid and DJ Logic and The Beat Kids, fronted by Guillermo E. Brown. (whew, getting tired just writing this)
At the Yari Yari Pamberi Conference Latasha gave a presentation that broke down sound through macaronic verse, language and electronic vocal processing. What she had to say was so brilliant that we had to present it in the cyber pages of Nat Creole. |
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Macaronics and Globalization
Track #1 (Duke Ellington, Afro Eurasian Eclipse, 1971)
At the very beginning of this album, Mr. Ellington speaks of how the entire world is becoming oriental. Quoting Marshall McLuhan, he mentions that this “universal compulsion of rhythm”, is occurring worldwide and that the mixing of cultural influences is profound. Mr. Ellington, through his travels, accepts this as portrayed in this piece and by definition my favorite album, The Far East Suite. Thus, if we are to look at what Mr. Ellington saw in McLuhan’s definition of orientalism, we should look at another term often used to illustrate the damages of multi/corporate expansion, free trade, war, and globalization. I use this term loosely to examine what I do within sound text. More important, I think, is the method through which I have chosen to explore globalization through — the literary form called macaronics.
Macaronic verse, a form developed in the 15th century Italy and later popularized in Germany, was constructed in four simple ways. One, the writer used two or more languages with one language used for conjunctions. Second, the language was not restricted to “pure” dialect but open to the language of law, newspapers, the vernacular, etc. Thirdly, words may contain an ending from another language. For example if I were to combine Japanese and Spanish, words would sound like this: Cohi(a), wakarimas(amos), toke(ska). Lastly, the form was often used as satire, as a means of critiquing the political atmosphere for that time. No line limitations. No meter involved. Just word play.
Aside from their literal definitions, I focus on the sound quality of various dialects with a means to generate a discourse with the senses. Within the framework of performance, each word is “performed” rather than delivered. This notion of performing the text falls within a switching of codes that deals with physical mannerisms and how we talk to one another through daily performance. Thus, translation is unnecessary because it is rather the inflection in the voice conveying the message. “Hon-to” has the same meaning as “Word” when poised as a question. “Fuck” the same as “Chi-ku-shoo” as “Dang” as “Aye Dio!”
Tangible examples of non-pure macaronics are those individuals who mesh two languages in conversation. Particularly in the Latino community, it is common to hear “Oye” begin a statement and “you know” end it. Even better, in the growing culture of hip-hop, it is the norm for a male mc to kick a line in Spanglish for his butter pecan mamasita. Thus, language proliferates the notion of code switching and how it is ingrained in many cultures. If we are the children of a Northern migration, a trans-Atlantic migration past and present, a Pacific migration, or even one that moves within class, code switching is a natural occurrence in one’s identity. Macaronics should be seen as a literary offspring of this.
Language is erected on sound and sound is the bearer of emotion. The sounding of phrases is performance — and this performance is often presented by the human voice, our seventh sense. All three provide an ample supply of sounds otherwise wordless, a textual puzzle to solve. Dependant only on the voice, the listener must transcribe what appears unsolvable through the fluency and mis/annunciations of the text. It is this process, the invention of a language that “uses the sinews” other languages that I am driven toward. This Babelish jargon — “the first day after divine chastisement, the language of primeval confusion,” according to biblical text — is where I conjure my muse. |
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Track #12 (Abbey Lincoln’s People in Me 1973)
What this song resonates is the same message the language, Papiamento, native to Curacao does. Both are what my work (within the tradition of satire, disobedient poetics, and cultural discourse) expresses. They introduce my personal ideology, my desire to include everything my ears takes interest to. They disregard American societal rules that more than often deny its history as one of hybrid. If the entire world is oriental according to Sir Duke, then all of me is Pan-Hyphen. Said better, the batidos de leche representing the subsidiaries of my generation. |
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Culture, Technology & the Human/Feminine Voice
Track #9 (Eric B. & Rakim “Paid in Full”, Seven Minutes of Madness Cold Cut remix, 1987)
Now of course, there may be better examples to select from. However, it’s my mix tape…so there. What made this a classic for me was one item…the Ofra Haza sample. It was familiar enough in its feminine quality but foreign enough in its vocalization to cause a buzz. Now of course, no one knew what she was saying, as is the constant problem that arises from sampling lyrics in another language. The recent tune by Truth Hurts, “Addictive” (produced by DJ Quik), contains a Hindi sample that literally describes “wedding flowers that are beautiful but bittersweet." This is a shy different than Miss Hurts and Rakim’s lyrics dealing with returning pages, rough sex, love, high fashion brands, and a half a gram. However, aside from copyright issues, American/European chauvinism, what both tracks did was merge cultures in a creative manner. Sonically both the Sephardic vocals of the late Ofra, the lyricism of Rakim were a seamless mash-up. Be a politically correct hater but admit it…you liked it.
When listening to “Paid in Full,” you may not read into the textual quality of the lyrics because meshed together, they contradict each other on paper. However, in the context of sound poetry, the determinate negation of its performance, like “Addictive”, holds up to finding an equity that defines emotion through sound. I present this only to generate a tonal transition from language to the use of the affected/unaffected voice in popular music.
Latasha Diggs is the author of three chap-books, Ichi-Ban: from the files of negríta muñeca linda and Ni-ban: Villa Misería (MOH Press), and Manuel is destroying in bathroom (Belladona Press) as well as the producer and writer for the conceptual audio project, Televisíon. She enjoys writing, yodeling, tinkering with delay pedals, digital effects boxes, drum pads, cooking salmon cakes and watching TV.
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The view from the plane window unexpectedly transformed from blue skies/wisps of clouds into a blank movie screen. A frenetic black and white montage of images played. Images representing the past few years of his life, a time when things dramatically changed. For the worst. Cisco shifted in his seat as he fought off the leg cramp. Though he was on his way to Puerto Rico, he was still locked in a New York state of mind.
Gray.
Gloomy.
Caustic.
Just like those images gallivanting across his imaginary movie screen, taunting him, as if wanting him to piss him off. Cisco wagged his head, kneaded his calf, getting the cramp to subside. Cisco hoped, no, wanted this trip be more than a vacation. He wanted to rediscover the deepest part of himself on the island he hadn’t set foot on since childhood. The island his parents dragged him away from (kicking and screaming) at the age of twelve. Dragged him back to Nueva Jork’s brutal winters and palm tree deprived streets. Why had it taken him so long to return? Ricans flew back and forth to la isla all the time. Yet Cisco hadn’t. It was almost as if he betrayed a best friend in the worst kind of way, and was too ashamed to face him. Would he fit in now? A creature of Brooklyn whose Spanish, once perfect, was now fragmented and tentative; he hated how he sometimes stammered while translating in his head. But like the song “En Mi Viejo San Juan” said, “I’ll return…to dream again...”
Would be a nice change of pace, since he was tired of all the fucking nightmares.
Four years since the soft-spoken orthopedic oncologist with the polka-dot bowtie said, “We might have to amputate your foot.” Stomach churned. Difficulty breathing. All Cisco could think was: who the fuck gets cancer in the foot? Luckily, it hadn’t come to the surgeons hacking off his appendage. But there was a big price to pay. All those surgical procedures; muscle transplants and skin grafts. They rebuilt him like Steve Austin. Except he wouldn’t be better or faster: he’d end up enduring constant pain as he struggled to walk again. Then there were the emotional blows: the uncertainty and fear and resentment, all the same emotional blows he suffered as a kid when diagnosed with rheumatic fever. Six years old. Woke up, hyped to be attending first grade. Rolled of out bed and fell to the floor because he couldn’t feel his legs. What was supposed to be a two-week hospital stay, turned into a ten-month ordeal in a wheelchair. And a boy a faced the kind of challenge most adults would never want to endure. At the age of forty, seemed like Cisco was experiencing it all over again. Surgery. Recovery. New muscle from his forearm, and skin from his thigh, replaced the tendons and tissue, which were excised along with the golf size tumor. Months in a wheelchair. Grueling physical therapy. Recurrence. Start all over again. Then they hit his foot with radiation. Third degree burns. Foot cooked crispy like pork rinds. Only way to control the excruciating pain was by popping prescription methadone pills. Over the years, Cisco partook in his share of recreational drugs, but never expected to be nodding in front of the TV, resembling the junkies sitting on benches in Tompkins Square Park back in the big bad Eighties. Urban ghosts no one noticed. That’s how Cisco felt now: invisible.
“…And we will be landing…” the captain said. Cisco buckled his seat belt. Closed his eyes.
   
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The August heat was intense: it wrapped itself around Cisco like a sexy, dark-skinned Dominican girl filled with desire. Hot never felt so good.
Cisco knocked on Pedro’s hotel room door.
“Entra.”
Cisco headed in. Pedro changed from jeans and sweater to khaki shorts and a white tank top. Pedro resembled a panther. Slim and sinewy. Prominent forehead and feline-hazel eyes. Moved like one too: stalked you with ferocious elegance. He was slipping on his leather sandals. “Ready for a walk?”
“Uh huh.”
“We’ll leave early Sunday for Cayey. In the meantime, let’s make trouble in El Condado.”
There they go, female tourists from Europe and the U.S. searching for a killer tan. Prowling for a rum-infused, decadently good time. Ashford Avenue was the main strip barreling through El Condado. Cisco made way for the squad of giggling blondes as he and Pedro crossed the street. Tourists galore. Traffic ambled forward, slower than the pedestrians. Lining each side of the boulevard were hotels. Old hotels. Giant hotels. New Hotels. Hotels under construction. Wydam. Marriot. All the usual suspects. The infectious, rolling beat of Reggaeton blasting from every crawling/parked car. Daddy Yankee and Tego Calderon manically rapping about hard streets and groovy culos/booties. Cisco was looking forward to hearing Salsa, Salsa y mas Salsa. So far, Reggaeton ruled. The Puerto Rican soundtrack dramatically changed since Cisco was a kid. These days, it was urban.
“Little more high energy, than expected,” Cisco said, voice raspy as he admired the sky bleeding amber. Sun lazily fading behind the gleaming sapphire ocean. An intricate tango between day and night and light and dark. The beauty of it made him choke back tears. He sucked in salty air. Deep breath.
“This part?” Pedro said. “They’re puttin’ up hotels like it’s Vegas. Casinos. Theme restaurants…”
“Progress, they call it.”
Cisco and Pedro stopped at a roadside cuchifrito joint at the outskirts of El Condado. Quieter. You could actually hear the ocean crashing against the surf. They savored greasy meat empanadas/patties and Medalla beer.
“Weird to be back?” Pedro asked wiping his mouth with a paper napkin.
“Not sure yet. But we have plenty of exploring to do.”
   
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Old San Juan. Cobblestone streets and century Old Spanish style buildings painted in the brightest pastel colors. Aqua. Tangerine. Lemon. Bright as childhood memories. Memories of Cisco’s family strolling the same narrow streets, Mami regaling him and his siblings with stories about Puerto Rico’s history and cultura. About how they were part African, part Taino, part Spanish and a little Arab thrown in for good measure. How being Puerto Rican mixed blood and cultures of the world into one perfect hybrid. It was something to celebrate, something to be proud of.
While Pedro was perusing the shelves of a used bookstore, Cisco stood in the entrance watching the women stroll by. All impressive curves and sun-kissed, sun-caressed skin. Negra. Blanca. Mulata. India. Fine. Cisco grinned. A musician was across the street, sitting on cracked, stone steps, plucking the strings of a guitar, filling the air with festive, folkloric music. Cisco wanted this trip to wipe away the bitter taste of the past few years. Memories of how his ex-girlfriend unceremoniously sent him packing while he was still recovering from a lung biopsy (“It can’t always be about you,” she said). How he ended up crashing at Johnny’s crib. His wild writer friend whose apartment was more of a mess than a crack den. Cisco sleeping on a lumpy mattress, on a floor covered by books and magazines and papers and cigarette butts and empty forty-ounce beer bottles. A mouse scurried from under the door and stared at Cisco, who swore that Mickey’s black, beady eyes were filled with pity.
During those months staying at Johnny’s, Cisco started taking salsa classes at Pedro’s studio. The thing Cisco wanted to do most was dance again. But between the stiffness and the pain, and the lack of tendons in his charred foot, it didn’t seem possible. Shit, he couldn’t even run anymore. Dancing salsa filled Cisco with an overwhelming sense of euphoria. No matter how tired, or how miserable he felt, when he danced, he was alive. Rapture. Like touching heaven. That’s why Pedro preferred to call the dance by its original name: Mambo. Meant “Conversation with the Gods” in African.
Pedro was part of a Latin dance subculture called On 2. Dancers who danced to classic mambo and salsa music: percussion driven big sound. Not the commercial, namby-pamby Marc Anthony stuff they played on the radio. Tito Puente. El Gran Combo. Spanish Harlem Orchestra. Musica con swing. In the On 2 world, dancers worked relentlessly to improve their skills, and repertoire of “shines” (steps) and turn patterns, wanting to master the dance until their body became a musical instrument that expressed all the intricacies of each song they grooved to. It was a world in which half the dancers were Asian, Anglo and African-American and hoofin’ it with the same passion and sabor/flava as the Ricans.
And Cisco was glad to be a part of the On 2. He took classes with Pedro many years ago, back in the early days, but eventually dropped out of the On 2 scene because he was busy with his failed career as a painter. Came back to the dance after recovering from surgery. All the pain he suffered in class during the past couple of years finally paid off; now Cisco could move in ways he didn’t think he’d be able to, and he adored the dance more than ever.
   
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The rent-a-car zoomed down the highway, Pedro behind the wheel as they headed south to Cayey to meet Ismael. He was an old friend who got married and moved back to Puerto Rico several years ago, and found bliss teaching Physical Education at the university during the day, teaching On 2 Mambo at his studio and performing at night. Cisco studied the lush emerald mountains they passed. He grinned in anticipation. Couldn’t wait to hit Las Fiestas Patronales, an annual festival to honor various Catholic saints held in towns all over Puerto Rico. Cayey’s was considered the best. One massive party featuring the best Salsa bands on the island, food, rides and PR pride. Cisco and his family used to drive two hours each way to attend Las Fiestas Patronales and never missed it in the seven years Cisco lived in Puerto Rico. Pedro and Cisco were going to be hanging out with Ismael, his wife Lali, and all their dancer friends.
“I hope you’re ready to party,” Pedro said.
“Shit, yeah. I haven’t seen El Gran Combo live since I was a kid. Gonna dance my ass off.”
Cisco was excited, not only because he was going to hear the best Latin band ever, but also because he’d be around his gente/people for real. This wasn’t no tourist attraction, this was down home Boricuas having a blast. Ismael and Lali were going to be performing with El Gran Combo. Cisco always loved Ismael’s staccato style footwork and was looking forward to seeing him do his thing after so many years.
They arrived at a suburban part of Cayey and the streets where one big fiesta. A crew of percussionists was in front of Ismael’s two-story cement house, getting down with congas bongos timbales as friends and neighbors crowded around them, and sang and danced with unrestrained joy. Ismael gave Pedro and Cisco big, welcoming hugs. He’d aged a bit, but was still wiry and energetic. No longer winter pale, Ismael’s strawberry blonde hair and hazel eyes stood out more than ever. Ismael introduced Cisco and Pedro to everyone.
“Pedro’s the best salsa dancer around,” Ismael said to his friends. “Taught me everything I know.” Cisco laughed. He’d never seen Pedro actually blush.
Cisco headed into Ismael’s marquesina/garage where a makeshift bar had been set-up. The blazing sun, the long ride, all called for a nice, cold one. The bartender was a woman in her forties. Wavy auburn hair danced across freckled shoulders as those allusive eyes and ingratiating smile made Cisco want to kiss her. She gave Cisco a cold cerveza and he reached into his pocket for money and she touched his forearm, the one with oval skin graft and long scar, and said, “You’re a friend of Ismael’s From Nueva York, papito. You don’t have to pay.”
“Gracias. I should give you tip, though.”
“How about un besito?” She leaned forward and puckered her lips and Cisco kissed her and she threw her arm around his neck and held it for a second and it was spicy and wet and Cisco swooned a little. She beamed and winked and said, “Have a good time.” Cisco headed back outside and could still feel her hot lips on his, and it was like he was ten again and shared his first kiss with his year older neighbor Chari, a scrawny girl with the stringy hair and gleaming braces. How swept away he’d been by that first beso. And he seemed to be re-experiencing those same feelings of innocent desire/discovery. Cisco sipped his beer; strolled over to the percussionists and listened to them feverishly play their instruments as if possessed by el epiritu of their African ancestors. You couldn’t wipe away the smile from Cisco’s face even if you slapped him. He heard clackity-clack noises, looked up and watched a man casually ride by on a gray and white horse. Cowboy hat and boots. Un vaquero. The man gave Cisco the peace sign and grinned.
Ismael put his arm around Cisco. “Good to see you, bro’.”
“Same here. How’s life in P.R. been treating you?”
“The best. When I first came, it was like whoa, I can’t adapt to this life. I was used to the hustle and bustle of New York, tu sabe’? Now it’s paradise, bro’,” he said while patting Cisco on the back. “We’re gonna have a blast tonight.”
When they arrived at Las Fiestas Patronales, Cisco wondered if it was going to be anything like the Puerto Rican Day Parade in New York. He used to attend the Parade every year, back when you could barbeque in the park and folks had picnics/played beisbol/ate traditional food/sipped rum and it was a fun family affair. But over the years it changed, thanks to the new law-and-order-quality-of-life mayor. The park was sealed off (can’t have all them spics fuckin’ up the grass), people were treated like cattle and herded through barricaded walkways, drinking became illegal and most of the families were replaced by a younger generation who seemed more interested in getting laid than celebrating their culture. Then there was the incident. The news showing disturbing video images of girls getting groped/fondled/stripped by posses of thug boys. Left a lasting, nasty tarnish on the parade. Cisco stopped going because he didn’t feel safe, or even like he belonged anymore.
   
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The festival was packed. There were carnival rides and games and an explosion of light/color/noise. Food and liquor stands. You could drink rum and beer openly. The smell of alcapurias and lechon, and the sounds of Spanish permeated the warm, late afternoon breeze. What impressed Cisco most was how polite everyone was. Warm smiles and hellos. None of the New York urban emotional armor and attitude. An old fashion sense of respect that immediately reminded Cisco of his father.
Seemed like every one knew Ismael, who they called the unofficial alcalde/mayor of Cayey. People greeted Pedro and Cisco like they were celebrities. El Gran Combo on the stage. Trombones trumpets saxophones forming complex melodies over intricate African influenced percussive beats. Fifteen-piece orchestra was celebrating more than thirty-years as the most popular salsa band ever. With seventy-year-old Rafael Ithier, virtuoso pianist and bandleader at the helm, El Gran Combo managed to cross every generation and their big band music style survived every trend in Latin music virtually unchanged. Though considered “traditional” the band was as popular as ever.
Cisco watched a cluster of dancers getting down to Ithier and his boys’ sizzling jam session. The heaviness of heart Cisco experienced before coming on this trip lifted.
Cisco noticed a particular girl dancing. She was maybe twenty, slinky, lengthy black hair tied in a ponytail. Skintight jeans and a red tank top with On 2 blazed across her chest. She moved and turned and shook her hips with an eloquence and style that spoke to Cisco. He was mesmerized by her delicate beauty and dazzling smile. It wasn’t only Cisco, though: plenty of other people stopped to admire the island angel perform her spicy moves. Her partner was dancing his ass off too, but it was all about her. In mambo dancing it should always be about the woman.
Ismael said, “That’s one of my students. Yacelis”
“Que divina.”
“Yeah. You should dance with her.”
“I don’ think I can keep up. Lookit her partner. Homeboy’s the shit.”
“Just have fun, bro’. Yacelis always likes having fun.”
Cisco chickened out. Like it was a high school prom and he was the pimply nerd too afraid to ask the popular girl to dance. Instead, he cruised around. Savored all kinds of food. Drank shots of rum. Took pictures of families having a wonderful time. Never once did Cisco look over his shoulder. Never once did he feel unsafe.
He returned to the area where Ismael’s crew was dancing. El Gran Combo started to play Un Verano En Nueva York. A summer in New York. The Rican flags were waving as the crowd boogie downed and cheered and sang the lyrics to the song.
“Con su permiso,” Yacelis said as she touched Cisco’s shoulder. Tingles slithered up his back. “Ismael said I should dance with you.”
Cisco grinned. “Yeah, you should.” He took Yacelis’ dainty hand and escorted her to an area where there was space to move. While the singer was singing about the fun of summer in New York, Cisco was lost under the star-filled Puerto Rican sky and Yacelis’ sparkling eyes. He took her in his arms, held her close, hit the beat and their bodies were swept up by the passionate rhythm of the congas. The air escaped from Cisco’s lungs and his chest tightened. Relax. Relax. Feel the music. Relate to your partner. Cisco smoothly turned Yacelis to the left, and then to the right, both hands now, twirled her around so her back was to him and his arms locked around her waist, pulling her into an intimate embrace. Yacelis read his every signal to perfection. The nervousness vanished as he surrendered to music, to the dance, and put Yacelis through complex turn patterns, always keeping more weight on his right foot, his good foot. The cancer foot? For the first time in years, there was no pain. Yacelis became his paintbrush, and he painted a beautiful mambo dance with her. Her arms wrapped around his neck, hips undulating, eyes locked, lips smiling. It was a four-minute romance. Cisco loved the way they clicked; lost in each other’s sensual caresses, laughing at every challenge met every, and every discovery made. They broke away and started doing shines. Fancy footwork. Mirroring and copying each other. Shoulders rolling. Waists undulating. Feet criss-crossing. From the corner of his eye, Cisco could see Pedro and Ismael dancing with Lali, stealing her away from each other, egging each other on, driving Lali into a dance frenzy. Cisco swept up Yacelis in his arms again. All the lights and bodies and sweat and sounds and scents overtook him, setting him free from the emotional cage he’d built for himself. As Cisco did a dramatic Fred Astaire style dip, staring deep into Yacelis’ enchanting eyes, he knew he was home.
She gave him a big hug. Held it for a moment. Warm feelings between them.
“Nice,” she said. That’s all she needed to say.
   
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Cisco mambo-ed his ass off, set after set, band after band. Light rain began to fall. Soon, it started pouring sheets, and the band was forced to leave the stage. The throngs sought refuge from the tropical thunderstorm anywhere they could: under food stands, rides, cardboard boxes, even the stage. Many began to exit, quickly heading for their cars.
Pedro and Cisco were crouched underneath the elevated stage, crammed with dozens of others waiting out the torrential downpour.
“Hell of way to end the night,” Pedro said.
“Yeah,” Cisco said as he admired a large crowd that remained in front of stage, holding up a legion of colorful umbrellas, patiently waiting out the storm, eager to be possessed by the rhythm of the music again.
Cisco abruptly stepped out into the rain. He closed his eyes. Held his head up. And as cool, thick raindrops splattered across his face, for the first time, in a very long time, he dared to dream.
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| Jerry A. Rodriguez is a writer-director living in Brooklyn. He wrote and directed the critically acclaimed short film El Deseo/The Desire and is currently developing a documentary about Mambo dancing. Kensington Books will publish his first novel in a thriller series, featuring ex-cop Nicholas Esperanza, in the fall of 2007. For more on Jerry go to www.jerryarodriguez.com |
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I returned to Jamaica this past summer unexpectedly. My great aunt, Gladys, passed away at the age of 87 and my mother and my aunt invited me to go with them to the funeral. At the time, I had taken time off from working to travel and I learned of Aunt G’s death while I was passing through my home town, New York, between destinations. Coincidentally, the purpose of my summer hiatus was to “find myself,” recent graduate twixter that I am, and this trip to Jamaica met my agenda precisely. The opportunity presented itself with uncannily perfect timing, and I obediently took it.
It was a trip back to my roots. My mother’s family is from Jamaica. My mother, the oldest of nine, was the first to immigrate to the United States and I am the first family member to be born here. I had been to Jamaica on numerous occasions previously but the last time I spent quality time with relatives there was when I was four years old. I knew that on this trip, I would see some family members that I had not seen since then and others that I had never even met before. (Aunt G, for example, I had never had the pleasure.) I was eager to fill in the blanks in my mental family tree. I became the proverbial sponge for knowledge.
We were in Jamaica for a total of three nights. For two of those nights, we stayed at a hotel in Kingston. On the night of the funeral, we stayed in Luna, a country town about an hour outside of the capital, where my mother grew up. Neither my mother nor my aunt wanted to stay in Luna long. Our family’s house has no running hot water for baths, no electricity in the new bathroom, and lots of mosquitoes that love people who visit from the States. In fact, if it weren’t for the fact that they didn’t want to drive back at night along those narrow winding mountainous roads that simulate the experience of a real-life rollercoaster, we would have gone back on the same day.
Nevertheless, we arrived in Luna on the Sunday of the funeral. The first thing I noticed when I got there was how much smaller everything was than I remembered. The shop across from my family’s house where my cousin, Tye, and I used to buy penny candy, was not way on the other side of a wide street as in my memory, but only a few strides away, across the road of this one horse town. The church that I used to feel so grown walking to with Tye and that marked the farthest point in Luna that I could possibly conceive of, was only about four houses down the road. My perception of Luna as a four-year-old was like Alice in Wonderland’s perception of her world after she drank from the “drink me” bottle. Everything around me had seemed so big because I had been so small.
Once there, my mother, my aunt and I spent most of our time chilling around the house. Out of this downtime came one of the most touching experiences that I had had there. My mother had called me over to sit with her by her father’s grave. My grandfather, as is common in Luna, was buried in his house’s backyard. As I sat by the grave with her, she pointed out to me all the different trees growing there. The mango tree, the cocoa tree, the breadfruit tree, all hardly distinguishable to me. She told me about how she used to sell fruit sometimes for pocket money when she was younger. “I was an entrepreneur from birth” says this woman, who now owns her own successful business in Brooklyn. It was a memorable moment because my mother was opening up to me, a rarity in our relationship. At one point, I felt a pang in my heart. I knew that this moment was special and it was almost too much for me to feel all at one time. |
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Ironically, the funeral, although nice, was not the highlight of the trip for me. The ceremony was standard. We went to the church, some key family members gave speeches and the congregation sang songs. After the ceremony, the congregation relocated to the back of the mountain where Aunt G was buried. The burial, in its modesty, was actually very beautiful. A team of three or four men laid Aunt G to rest next to her previously deceased husband. She was buried above ground and the shape of her plot was like the mouth to a cave, carved out of the mountain. The men slid her casket into the opening and worked quickly to close the entryway with cinder blocks and cement. The process was all done by hand. The onlookers sang hymns as if to provide musical encouragement to the workers and to lull her soul. The scenery was raw, lush and green and you could smell the dirt beneath you. I think it even rained. It was so perfect in its imperfection that it was cliché and even movie-like. As customary, there was a delicious curry goat dinner afterwards. The reception took a slightly more upbeat tone. Aunt G had lived to a ripe old age and the guests there focused on celebrating her life rather than mourning her death.
Not all immigrant children have the opportunity to go back to their parents’ countries. I took special note of everything that I saw because I wanted to have enough information to pass on to my future children when I bring them there. I amassed the knowledge out of the anxiety-ridden truth that my connection to this land is not direct but linked through my cousin, my aunt and others who were born there. What would happen if I didn’t have those people in the future? Would my connection be lost? What if my aunt moves and people in Luna don’t remember me? What stories would I tell my children?
In the end, the trip did bring me a more rooted sense of self but I don’t quite understand why. I mean, I don’t and then I do. I went back to where my mother is from. Revisiting Luna with her gave me a better sense of who she was and where she came from. I understand how that helps my relationship with her but not how it helps my personal growth. On the other hand, while I don’t see the direct correlation, I do recognize that there is something intangible but undeniable about knowing where your elders are from that gives you a sense of pride. I can’t put my finger on it, but I do know it’s real.
I enjoy going back to Jamaica because something new opens up for me each time. I went back to Jamaica again this holiday season with my mother and 11 other family members from the States. This time, I met my mother’s high school teacher, her college sparring partner who told me stories of when they used to go partying, and my grandmother’s long lost sister and her family. And again I felt so lucky, especially as a black person, to be able to retrace my ancestry.
I don’t believe in God but I do think that all things happen for a reason. I was meant to return to Jamaica during this period of self-discovery in order to ground myself. As a child, I was connected by Jamaican culture but was not cognizant of it. Navigating my way through private schooling, those ties became frayed along the way. Returning to Jamaica as an adult, I reinforced those bonds and then some. They say you have to know where you come from to know where you’re going. The trip, in many ways, gave me the direction I was searching for. |
Nicole Thompson is a native Brooklynite and Princeton University graduate. She writes good.
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